Take A Breather.

I wish everyday was this easy.

I wish i could go home enjoying the usual sceneries and whats left of the sun

.. Thinking how grateful i am for the day

.. For it exact is.

For what had happened and what have not.

I wish i could trap this occasional compassion in me.

Coz it felt like it had only been yesterday that i wondered where it was for a brief moment, the familiar nerve wreck that triggers somewhere in me that similar ache, assumptions, and dissappointment;

Which leads to my own never ending negativities. A series of time wasters. And a great way to reck the rest of the day with.

Hit the break. Patience, win -win, and surrender. Thats what i tell myself. Before i end up doing anything i regret.

Sigh. Lord I pray I'll always be included in one of who You guide.

( 5 pm on a usual workday )

Miss u, baby.

Noura, i miss her.

Miss her laughs

Her bounce

Her crippled face when she bumps her head

Her anticipation

Her stories told with pure body gestures that are immensly cute

Her arm brace

Her weight sleeping on me

Her wide eyes

And a pair of eyelash so beautiful that it hurts to see them wet

Her giggles

Her teeth sounds grinding down ice

Her whimper when she pleads for something

Her baby talk 

And her cute little acts finding herself infront of a mirror

Her showing off teeth

Her 'ooh' face and the accompanying index finger shooting out

Her loving kiss 

Her habbit of dragging someone by the finger

And i miss her  peaceful face sucking in a thumb while sleeping,

and the old tali guling tht she cnt sleep without.

Youre my inspiration, baby.

And still i have glimpse of u every now and then

The times we spent together

Are ones i cherish and look forward to

May He the Guardian look after you. Always.

Antee.