Taare Zameen Par Movie

Taare Zameen Par a hindi movie. Very inspiring one. Teaches how each person that are brought the world has their own distinct talents. When the world demands accountants, financial consultants, doctors and other prestigious and highly paid most favoured jobs, theres this one kid one where once nobody could understood him other than his obnoxious attitude, incapable self dicipline, or how the letters seems to dance infront of his eyes, as it turns out he was diagnosed dyslexic.

Amir khan himself starred and directed this, which brings me down to tears. So heroic and a very bold act of altruism, when he concerns so much for the child in particular and polishes him until he came out not only above average student, but also a star in the end. 

Intriguing. Moral added values. Great shots and just perfect portions of animations added. Plus i'd like to say that it was colorful, sappy in good times and cute too seing the bunch of kids and their pure joys. A real freshener for the drama genre.

Reverse.

She started calling mom, mama too. Maybe since evryone in the house does. 

I never knew the difference, thought it was because of the post operation done when the medic world could get her feces out eventually. Thought she was so relieved from once having a hard time pooping that got her now so cheery.

She likes the attention of showing how accomplished she is at grasping her own fingers together and hold them both up. Or seeing that everyone cracked up so wildly finding out she was groning in pain at nothing when paman abdi,mthe very so skillful traditional massager, was actually pretending and in fact did not touch her at all.

Its true. Shes starting to lose some memories and beginning to act as a child.

Some people regard it as a misfortune. I see it is easier now to please her. She doesnt think unnecesarry thoughts as much. The life and stuff she left behind. Her life became so simple that all she cares about is going along with the daily routines and give best effort in curing herself.

By this rate she might not remember her other son at all soon enough. The black pawn of the family. One who once she sacrificed her life and every penny for, the well-being and wealth of some other long distance families that i never met (result of my grandad's polygamy act), and dragged mine too almost into separation because of him screwing around with debt collectors, police force and illegal associates for as long as he lived.

We dont know where he's at. And wont even try to find out as long as grandma never asked for him. 

The question is, will she ever?

Take A Breather.

I wish everyday was this easy.

I wish i could go home enjoying the usual sceneries and whats left of the sun

.. Thinking how grateful i am for the day

.. For it exact is.

For what had happened and what have not.

I wish i could trap this occasional compassion in me.

Coz it felt like it had only been yesterday that i wondered where it was for a brief moment, the familiar nerve wreck that triggers somewhere in me that similar ache, assumptions, and dissappointment;

Which leads to my own never ending negativities. A series of time wasters. And a great way to reck the rest of the day with.

Hit the break. Patience, win -win, and surrender. Thats what i tell myself. Before i end up doing anything i regret.

Sigh. Lord I pray I'll always be included in one of who You guide.

( 5 pm on a usual workday )

Miss u, baby.

Noura, i miss her.

Miss her laughs

Her bounce

Her crippled face when she bumps her head

Her anticipation

Her stories told with pure body gestures that are immensly cute

Her arm brace

Her weight sleeping on me

Her wide eyes

And a pair of eyelash so beautiful that it hurts to see them wet

Her giggles

Her teeth sounds grinding down ice

Her whimper when she pleads for something

Her baby talk 

And her cute little acts finding herself infront of a mirror

Her showing off teeth

Her 'ooh' face and the accompanying index finger shooting out

Her loving kiss 

Her habbit of dragging someone by the finger

And i miss her  peaceful face sucking in a thumb while sleeping,

and the old tali guling tht she cnt sleep without.

Youre my inspiration, baby.

And still i have glimpse of u every now and then

The times we spent together

Are ones i cherish and look forward to

May He the Guardian look after you. Always.

Antee.

Au Revoir.

Who are we to think so hard what it is? 

One thing i respect a persons privacy. And we came to know when a person needs one.

..

I know you say that everyone looked happy knowing your leaving. But just for you to know. Im happy seeing you believe in yourself. In what you want. And really took actions and responsibility for it. Im glad you faced it, what you dislike and you pursue what you truly wants, without letting ppl diss you or made you show event a hint of doubt. Such a nice example in the middle of crowd that hates but still do what they do. And proud of their whining.

Well, go you and all the very best for your future endeavours  *cheers

Awaiting the outcome.

Another year almost passed and here we are blown off to what we call routines and dwelve into new hobbies with new people.

 How issit we measure the value of it all? 
 How much we changed?how many knows us?how deep we learned?How rich our experiences?

 . . . 

 None of it really matters when were in the moment. When we dont feel like loosing anything. Beacuse we knew it wasnt ours in the first place. 

 Next week, our capeg results should be out. Ya allah, grants us semuanya kelulusan buat satu angkatan BK 44. Mdhn hasilnya jg ga mengecewakan. At least confirming our good feelings on the test we did last saturday. Mnt doanya ya. Amin.

2013..

yes. realitygazer is wrting again. finally. after years. scared, anxious and needless to say shes too desperate not to. Writing is an escape. it detangles the mind. an illusionary dreams and hopes. its an art. In the intent of nurturing this ability, cherish life and scrapes away pebbles along with it, bismillahirahmanirrahim..I now officially commit to blog. Hope anyone who came across pass this could benefit from it too. amin.